Another Six Months (Life Moving Forward)I’ve struggled with what to call this text, it’s the comply with as much as “Living Life Six Months at a Time” which is the comply with as much as the “Three months at a Time” article, however a not so humorous factor occurred on my method to the discussion board and it brings with it some viable choices for names. “Is not That A Kick In the Head?” was the one I used to be leaning in the direction of. By the way in which, has there ever been anybody smoother then Dean Martin? Maybe Frank.
So my earlier go to to the University of Wisconsin final May went so easy I used to be buzzing “How lucky can one guy be” as I left the hospital. There was no change in my standing and on this planet of lung most cancers, typically no change is one of the best information you possibly can have. For the following six months I set about my enterprise of dwelling life in Florida. I wrote somewhat, tinkered round the home, planted some grapes. Enjoy life and being alive. Before we knew it six months had handed and it was November, time to hop a flight to Chicago after which the three hour drive to the UW. I felt fairly assured about this go to. (“I’ve sun-shine enough to spread; Its like the fella said,” Tell me fast, isn’t love like a kick within the head? “) So we entered the hospital and made our method to the most cancers middle nestled within the nook of the second ground, to have blood drawn previous to my CT scan on the third ground after which again down to satisfy with my Doctor.
The IV went in on the primary try (How fortunate can one man be?) It’s going to be an excellent day. CT scan, easy as a martini.
The conferences with my oncologist normally are somewhat extra tense then they need to be, the fault being my very own for getting labored up ready for outcomes. This time I used to be a calmer then ordinary, all the pieces had been going nicely, I felt the identical as I’ve for the previous few years after my prognosis. Lindsy and I awaited his arrival to our analyzing room, fact be advised, it has at all times been my spouse that has saved me grounded and saved me from bouncing of the partitions and straight over the sting in these conditions.
The Doctor arrived, we had our regular getting dialog up after which all the way down to enterprise. The blood exams have been good so not rather a lot to speak about there. Then the evaluation of the CT, that is the place the rubber meets the street, the place I get to exhale in reduction at these phrases I lengthy to listen to “no change.” I started thinking about getting back to Florida to tend to the yard, and some other projects I wished to follow up on including the GFLCCO irons I had in the fire. All these thoughts interrupted by his voice saying, “There’s been a change to your situation.” So I’m going to put up more lattice …… “What?” … “Wait a second what did he simply say?”
There is a good scene within the film “Jaws” where Chief Martin Brody and his wife are sitting on the beach and people are talking to him but he’s off in his own little world until he notices the disturbance in the water. Steven Spielberg then does this amazing camera shot that is the equivalent of pulling the stunned chief into reality right in front of our eyes. This is the way I felt. Like someone slapped me upside down the head and screamed, “Are you catching this my buddy? There is a two ton shark within the room with you, get up!”
Ok, not what I anticipated, “As the fella ‘as soon as stated, Is not kick within the head?”
The good physician then knowledgeable me that the expansion that had been mendacity dormant for the previous few years has now doubled in dimension since my earlier scan in May and though there may very well be a few explanations for this, we had higher a biopsy accomplished as quickly as attainable. Here’s the rub, we had booked our return flight to Florida and have been flying out earlier than time for a biopsy together with a comply with up go to would enable. Cancel the flight or have the check accomplished in Florida? I in all probability ought to have stayed and had it accomplished, however I needed to go house, so we did.
The Folks on the UW made the preparations for me to have the check accomplished the next week in Florida and Lindsy and I boarded the aircraft and headed again throughout the Mason / Dixon line to house.
This is the place the “This may solely occur to me” issue comes into play.
We present up for the preliminary assembly with the pulmonary physician in Florida who will likely be performing the biopsy however couldn’t determine which constructing his workplace was in so we known as and have been advised that our appointment was canceled as a result of regardless of the pulmonary DR. accepted our insurance coverage, the oncologist that he labored with and ‘may’ wish to seek the advice of with didn’t and subsequently. pulmonary Dr. couldn’t, wouldn’t, do the process. (“As the Sailor stated quote, Is not gap within the boat.”)
Mid November has now changed into December. Let me guarantee you that point turns into very noticeable if you start to query how a lot you may or might not have left.
I met with a neighborhood Pulmonary man and he organized for me to have a PET scan which is principally the place they shoot you stuffed with radiation after which run you thru a scanner to see what glows. (Glowing = Bad) I had just a few small glowing spots however nothing that will clarify the 4cm and rising mass that had retaken residency in the appropriate facet of my chest.
As December was making an attempt laborious to slide into January, I’m lastly having the biopsy that ought to get me off of this curler coaster I’ve been on for the previous two months. The date Is Jan. 30th. Happy New Year.
Sorry, no outcomes from the biopsy, the mass is situated exterior of the lung and out of attain for the gear we have now, you sir, should see a Thoracic surgeon who will be capable to do the biopsy. “What will he do?” I asked. “Well normally, they put you below, and open you up and go in for the tissue pattern.” he said. “Where?” I asked. “The hospital.” he said as he looked at me like I had lost my mind. “No, No.” I replied. “Where do they go in from, my chest?” “No, I consider he’ll make an incision in your throat and go from there.” he said in a very matter of fact way. “How fortunate can one Guy Be?”
Let me get this straight, I am going in and pay cash to have some man slit my throat? “Go meet with the Guy” the Doctor says.
So I meet with the Thoracic Surgeon who reviewed my varied scans and check outcomes and sat me down and advised me that it appeared like most cancers and that he didn’t assume that opening me up could be one of the best factor at the moment, there’s a biopsy process that’s the identical because the one I had however would be capable to penetrate the lung wall and retrieve a pattern, sadly they didn’t have that functionality right here. He may nonetheless request the process at Shands Hospital in Gainesville, house of the U of F. It’s a 4 hour drive to Gainesville, however at this level, what are ya gonna do?
My assembly at Shands hospital was scheduled for January 27th to satisfy with the Doctor who would carry out the following process that will defiantly, in all probability, possibly inform me if I used to be heading for remedy once more.
On the 23rd, I seen a tooth ache, no large deal. On the evening of 24th, (The room was utterly black, I hugged her and she or he hugged again.) The tooth ache exploded right into a full an infection and the left facet of my face swelled up like somebody had positioned a seaside ball into it. The ache has unexplainable. Lynn despatched considerate time on the cellphone the following morning looking for a dentist that will take me however like all the pieces else over the previous few months, it was not simple. Finally we discovered a dentist with a dental surgeon on obligation that took my insurance coverage and will see me in the present day.
I may write an entire separate article on this dental expertise in addition to the raging fever and hallucinating that started as I used to be driving house from the dentist and continued into the 4 hour drive to Gainesville two days later, nevertheless it’s only a sidebar for now. A story for one more time.
We met with the Doctor, confirmed him the scans and the varied check outcomes and notes from the earlier pair of Doctors and the U of W info and he agreed to get it accomplished the next Monday.
On the 31st of January, Lindsy and I as soon as once more made the journey to Gainesville, the place I had the latest process that will defiantly, probably, probably, present the reply I had been looking for.
“We ought to have outcomes on Wednesday.” changed into a late night name the next Monday February seventh.
Being recognized at occasions to be expressive with my feelings, let me guarantee you that the delay in outcomes had me sitting someplace in between panic and full uncontrolled rage. I used to be making an attempt laborious to maintain it bottled, thank God nobody reduce me off on the drive by means of at McDonalds that week, or needed to choose a combat At the grocery retailer over the past head of lettuce.
I took the decision Monday night and excused myself from the room. Any anger I’d had felt left shortly as he started to talk. The Doctor defined to me that the expansion was not a diffusion of most cancers however extra of a tissue and cell break down from radiation remedies that I had obtained and though I’ve excessive danger potential, I used to be off the hook for now. I would wish one other scan in a month simply to watch the exercise, like putting sensors round a rumbling volcano. I thanked him, hung up the cellphone, and sat in disbelief. It was lastly over, for now.
Lindsy joined me on the steps the place I had retreated to take the decision and we shared in a kind of moments that you just actually cannot clarify.
The subsequent morning, after three months, life started transferring ahead once more.
“My head is spinning I am going To sleep and preserve grinning,
If that is just the start, My life goes to be Beautiful ”
I as soon as wrote about fearing the second when the phrase “No change,” would be replaced by “We have an issue,” Let me guarantee you the method is identical because the preliminary diagnoses. Shock, denial, sorrow, acceptance all resulting in the overwhelming urge to stay and do no matter it takes to stay. Everyone is totally different, I saved the occasions of the previous three months one thing quiet till we lastly came upon what was happening. Moving ahead once more feels good.
Life is a present, regardless of how laborious or unusual it’s at occasions. This was my reminder of that reality. Six months at a time, adequate for me. “How Lucky Can ONE Guy BE?”